Someone to be there for me

Sometimes, I really hope that S will be in Singapore. It really sucks that your close friend don't know what's in your mind. I need someone who know when I am serious, when I feel depressed, when I feel angry and most importantly, will be there for me when I need them.

Yes, It's fun being with them, spending our day together might be the happiest thing in my life. But so what if you enjoy yourself so much but when something happened to you, no one is there or even, no one know about it? This is the first time I feel this way ever since S left for USA. I can't blame her can I? I hate keeping things to myself so much.

Now it's the time I really need someone to be there. I have no idea why am I being so paranoid recently, but I can't help it, especially when I am having confidence problem. Most people might think I am crazy, but it's no about how people think about you, it's your own expectations of yourself.

What am I supposed to do? The moment I reached home, I feel super depressed cause there's no distraction, but only me, myself, and I. Which is why I hate to stay at home, so, I am gonna bury myself with home works and projects now.