Confidence

I am emotional cause of dance, again. It's Been a long time since this happened. I think I might as well be the worst dance in the world! I'm keeping it to myself cause there's no one who have the power to makes me feel better, emotionally. I've been trying my best to avoid it, but it'll come back every time I came home from lessons. The people I talked to doesn't even know how I feel, or maybe, the didn't give me the "answers" which will make me feel better. (I don't know what is it either!)


No matter how hard I train, I still remain the same. I am sooo stressed about audition and school projects and it's killing me! Worst of all, I AM NOT ENJOYING IT! I feel so stressed and I am like dancing for the sake of dancing. I can't even feel myself.

SO many aspects to be improved on and it just won't happen!

I sounds angry but in fact, I am soo pissed and disappointed in myself.
You know what NO confidence mean?

1) I am the worst dancer you'll ever met.
2) I am UGLY.
3) I am fat, super fat.

I know I might not be, but I just feel this way!  I need my confidence back in place, it's affecting me so badly. But the question is HOW?